- It is the only thing that seems appropriate to write about on New Year’s Eve 2011. For oh so many reasons I want to be sure to mark this date and time in my life. Let me start with just some simple milestones that occur to me at this moment.
- Time has flown by so fast that I can hardly imagine that 50 years ago this month I married my husband. We were students at Oklahoma State University, Stillwater, OK. I was 18 and he 21. The exact legal age to marry without parental consent. We tried to elope but ended up with a church wedding to prevent the wrath of my mother from descending on us. He would become her best friend. We would commit to growing old together, (and we have as I will be 69 next month and he is 71).
- My biological father Lloyd Jewell Godwin was born on January 1, and would be 96 if he were living. Already on his own at twelve, he became a boxer, and was so good looking he was once mistaken for the notorious “Pretty Boy Floyd” and arrested. He became a sharecropper at age 21 to win my grandfather’s permission to marry my mother, who was 16, and later learned the welding trade and traveled for the Oklahoma Union until retirement. Happy Birthday Dad.
- We live in deeds, not years; in thoughts, not breaths; in feelings, not in figures on a dial. Philip James Bailey, Festus Somehow, that translation of Time speaks to me when I review my life. It encourages me to realize I am not in a battle with Time; but rather I am living in an accumulation of deeds, thoughts and feelings that are not dictated by the years I have left.
- Indifferent to the affairs of men, time runs out, precise, heedless, exact and immutable in rhythm. Erwin Sylvanus, Dr. Korczak and the Children. Truly, that sums up my thoughts at this milestone: Indifferent to the affairs of men (or women), Time runs out. I consider that I am not the thumb on the stopwatch; I am the runner in pursuit of another step. Yet I do believe, with all my heart that when the Time runs out, it is over. No bargaining, no purchasing of another day; simply the knowledge that time runs out. This is probably the one function of Time that I do understand.
- I would not be a writer if I did not summarize my thoughts of Time, the end of Time and compare it with the ‘written word’. The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another, and his humblest hour is when he compares the volume as it is with what he vowed to make it. J. M. Barrie, The Little Minister.
- “Having lived long, I have experienced many instances of being obligated by better information, or fuller consideration, to change opinions even on important subjects, which I once thought right, but found to be otherwise.” Benjamin Franklin. I do not make New Year’s Resolutions, but rather choose to adopt an “attitude of mindset” for the New Year. So for 2012, with this quote in mind, I choose: “Open to change in the Time I have left.” Happy New Year.