I CHOOSE: A Mother’s Day Reflection by Author Joyce Godwin Grubbs


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Pictured with mother, Marguerite in the 1940’s and my sister Trula Ann Godwin (Tanner)72 family collage

(Pictured on author’s 72nd birthday; Joyce, Trula DeeAnn, Husband and Family Patriarch Herman Lee Grubbs, “Baby girl” Shannon Rae, and son Steven Eric.

 

I CHOOSE Today this will be the liberating time that I get some things off my chest. I take myself to a”calm and serene boat, afloat in the sea, in view of the full moon.”  I contemplate what would be constructive in my life today.

I CHOOSE to acknowledge that when I choose forgiveness and go to unlock the door where I harbored the fugitive of my elusive anger and pain, I come to full knowledge that “I was the prisoner“.

I CHOOSE to acknowledge that in my “maturity” I am still prone to “hissy fits” to express my outrage and disgust at the lack of humanity I see daily on television and encounter in life. I choose not to even consider quitting the practice: however I am open to the concept of posting a warning.

I CHOOSE to torment my daughters who are showing signs of “Coddling Syndrome” which is the practice of beginning to interact with me in a way that suggests I need to be “coddled” as I’m showing the signs of “old timers disease”.

I CHOOSE to send my children, daughters and son,  mixed messages when I post things like this:  BORROWED BECAUSE I COULD NOT SAY THIS BETTER: ORIGINAL AUTHOR UNKNOWN TO ME BUT APPRECIATED MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY. (Slightly modified so I can include my son.)

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Letter from a Mother to  Daughters and Son.
  “My dear children, the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through.
If when we talk, I repeat the same thing a thousand 488020_10151705764853943_1120829626_ntimes, don’t interrupt to say: “You said the same thing a minute ago”… Just listen, please. Try to remember the times when you were little and I would tell the same story… night after night until you would fall asleep.
When I don’t want to take a bath, don’t be mad and don’t embarrass me. Remember when I had to run after you making excuses and trying to get you to take a shower when you were just a child?
When you see how ignorant I am when it comes to new technology, give me the time to learn and don’t look at me that way… remember, honey, I patiently taught you how to do many things like eating appropriately, getting dressed, combing your hair and dealing with life’s issues every day.
The day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through. If I occasionally lose track of what we’re talking about, give me the time to remember, and if I can’t, don’t be nervous, impatient or arrogant. Just know in your heart that the most important thing for me is to be with you.
And when my old, tired legs don’t let me move as quickly as before, give me your hand the same way that I offered mine to you when you first walked.
When those days come, don’t feel sad… just be with me, and understand me while I get to the end of my life with love. I’ll cherish and thank you for the gift of time and joy we shared. With a big smile and the huge love I’ve always had for you,
I just want to say, I love you… my darling daughters and son.
I CHOOSE TO GET EVEN. I may even write you into my novels and give you a wart on your nose.
I CHOOSE to write: and in doing so, I include my friends, my life and my beliefs. I plan to continue that practice in my novels and in my blog: so hang on to your hats.
72y
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About joycegodwingrubbs2

Some call me retired: I am RE-FIRED. I have written 15 books, plus 3 were written as a "ghost writer". I no longer offer them as printed books having them only available as Kindle Ebooks since my retirement as a novelist. Twelve books are on Amazon.com Kindle eBooks: collectively they are known as The Greyhound Lady Walking suspense series.They are real cases fictionalized into suspense stories to protect identities..( no victim/survivor names were compromised, and workers and locations were protected.) I also co-authored a non-fiction book: Footsteps Out of Darkness: The Annabelle Kindig Story . It is available on Amazon under the name of Annabelle Kindig. I have traveled, written from the heart, and found an audience that appreciates my "platform". The catalyst to writing the novels was the realization that if I died, I would take all my amazing experiences in these real cases with me; and believe me few have lived 5 lives in one. It would "silence the voices" of the victim/survivors whose triumphs are written into these novels. The suspense series was written in part with the collaboration of police woman and sex crime expert Trula Ann Godwin. In addition to the novels, I have written as a ghost writer for a World War II veteran who fought in the South Pacific aboard the USS Maryland in all the major battles. I have also written a non-fiction book recording oral history stories of my family members beginning with the 1930's to present. There are sixty-six "legacy" stories with pictures. It was recently published as a private printing for family and close associates only. I am a published photo journalist having won the 2009 Editor's Choice Award for internet freelance news articles and pictures of the Cedar Rapid's Iowa flood victim accounts and their personal struggles.. My husband and I are in our 52nd year together (only one blip on the marital radar together), and we have adopted three greyhounds; Dex, Big Buddy and Baby Doll. These were the inspirations in the Greyhound Lady Walking suspense series We have eleven grandchildren, 7 grandsons and 4 granddaughters. My three children live in Iowa, Wisconsin and Ohio.
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4 Responses to I CHOOSE: A Mother’s Day Reflection by Author Joyce Godwin Grubbs

  1. Dr. Michelle Harrison says:

    I LOVE it!

    • Dottie, you just wake up some mornings feeling like you need to “fix things” and “clean house” and at my age I do it in the virtual world instead of getting my rump in gear and doing “the real thing.” LOL

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