An Author’s Reflection on Turning 72 by Joyce Godwin Grubbs


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My favorite gift; the gift of family “about me” and the laughter.

It is also true that how happy you are, can be how sad you become when it draws to an end. I realized tonight that I raised some stubborn kids who refuse to “say goodbye” now or in the future. As a parent I learned you cannot prepare them for your “next journey” you can only wish you could. My three children are busy, successful and full of love but when it comes to “mom and dad” they just want to remain our kids. I cannot tell you how long its been since only the 5 of us sat in this house and shared. We are usually joined by grandchildren, friends, or we are one short.

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As exhilarating as it was this weekend, it touched a major nerve for the girls who had to remind me that, each visit has it’s “threat level”. That this might be the last time we’re together, or the next time, etc. I can only add this to their fear that I don’t “get it” about our time together ending. I do “get it” and I am sorry I have to “put you through this.” But eventually, I must leave and go on to “what’s next.” Yes I will miss you, yes I would love to be with you always and see all that lies ahead for you.

Strange woman that I am, I take it on faith that it is going to be “okay” and that you will know in your heart that leaving you is the hardest thing I will ever do…………..however, remember, being able to do it “my way” will be the most important experience of control I have ever been allowed to have in this long and “dysfunctional” life. It is my way of leaving with dignity, peace, love and honor. Just this once, have faith that I do know how you feel, but I also know, that the memories made when I go, should be shared between the three of you and should help you stay strong.

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As that trio of mischief makers I have raised, I have been so very proud of you always. I cannot stay, I cannot take you with me, but I can love you “to the moon and back” and I can always know that “once, I was loved by you.” Mom.

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About joycegodwingrubbs2

Some call me retired: I am RE-FIRED. I have written 15 books, plus 3 were written as a "ghost writer". I no longer offer them as printed books having them only available as Kindle Ebooks since my retirement as a novelist. Twelve books are on Amazon.com Kindle eBooks: collectively they are known as The Greyhound Lady Walking suspense series.They are real cases fictionalized into suspense stories to protect identities..( no victim/survivor names were compromised, and workers and locations were protected.) I also co-authored a non-fiction book: Footsteps Out of Darkness: The Annabelle Kindig Story . It is available on Amazon under the name of Annabelle Kindig. I have traveled, written from the heart, and found an audience that appreciates my "platform". The catalyst to writing the novels was the realization that if I died, I would take all my amazing experiences in these real cases with me; and believe me few have lived 5 lives in one. It would "silence the voices" of the victim/survivors whose triumphs are written into these novels. The suspense series was written in part with the collaboration of police woman and sex crime expert Trula Ann Godwin. In addition to the novels, I have written as a ghost writer for a World War II veteran who fought in the South Pacific aboard the USS Maryland in all the major battles. I have also written a non-fiction book recording oral history stories of my family members beginning with the 1930's to present. There are sixty-six "legacy" stories with pictures. It was recently published as a private printing for family and close associates only. I am a published photo journalist having won the 2009 Editor's Choice Award for internet freelance news articles and pictures of the Cedar Rapid's Iowa flood victim accounts and their personal struggles.. My husband and I are in our 52nd year together (only one blip on the marital radar together), and we have adopted three greyhounds; Dex, Big Buddy and Baby Doll. These were the inspirations in the Greyhound Lady Walking suspense series We have eleven grandchildren, 7 grandsons and 4 granddaughters. My three children live in Iowa, Wisconsin and Ohio.
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